Hahahahahahahaha........
wow....
when is the last time "i wrote" article here....
oh yah, my confession..
hehehehe... totally forgot about that...
i don't have problem with my roommates anymore...
come to think of it...
maybe i'm the one who isolating myself....
forget about that...
want past is past...
LOOKING FORWARD TO THE FUTURE....
that my motto for the time being...
wow... is my life a big mess or what....
1st my roommates..
now my online friends..
ermmm... what happening to the world...
hahahhahahaha....
but i don't care anymore.....
already deleted them..
all 3 of them.....
OK... maybe that's not fair for them...
i know... i also think that's not fair for them....
but..... what's done is done....
and i don't know why..
but i'm happy right now....
hahhahahahahahhaa.....
outside i'm look happy.... but inside.... ONLY GOD KNOW..
hahahahahahahahaha........
ok... about my online friends...
the 3 of them...
wow...
ok... maybe i should tell them why i deleted them... especially my cousin...
and dad, if you reading this (i know my dad reading this)....
yup i deleted mus from my friend list....
don't worry...
nothing harm done....
i hope....
THE REASON.....
ladies and gentleman....
especially the 3 of you....
yup... you 3....
ARIAN, QUT, MUS
hahhahahahahahahahaha....... i'm not gonna be mysterious about their identity...
you can search them on facebook..
but not in my friend list...
i already deleted them....hehehhehehehehe...
not a very wise decision thou....
but QUT deleted me... not me......
but for ARIAN & MUS.... yup....
i deleted them....
THE REASON *again*
the true reason...
o yah.... before that...
arian, the bla... bla... bla... story that i told you last night is not really THE TRUE reason..
hehheheehe...
that just to cover things up.....
well it is true...
but not the true reason...
WOW... i'm a bit dizzy talking about the true not the true this is the really true...
things are topsy tervy..
hahahhahahahhahaha.....
ok people.....
keep up with me....
don't blurrr down right now...
the fun part is just about to start....
and dad.... if you reading this (i know that you are reading this)...
shusssss....... don't tell anyone.... and AZAM..... STOP READING THIS....
THIS IS A GROWN UP THINGS...
you only 7th years old..... GO DOWN AND WATCH TV.....
REMINDER... THOSE WHO ARE BELOW 18 ARE FORBIDEN TO READ THIS.....
wow... i'm against all law by telling this...
SORRY........ doesn't mean to tell everyone....
THE STORY START with bismillah.....
Once upon a time..
in a land far far away.....
live a boy with a big heart (that's me)..
hahahhahahahhahaa......
SEE how happy i am...
hahahhahahahaha.....
and i am right now... happy as a ????????? i don't know.....
how about happy as a cat how haven't got anything to eat in 2 weeks and in the moment of "no-more-hope" it found a fish.. and eat it.... that cat must be happy... hehhehehe... happy as that dying cat.....
WOW... not a very good example....
hahahhahahahahah......
ok... back to the story in the far far land....
the story began about 1 year ago...
(maybe it was 1 year +- month ago)
i was in my 4th semester in CENTER FOR FOUNDATION STUDIED IIUM....
proud to be a student there...
but the true is...
the 4th & 5th semester was the MOST HORRIBLE SEMESTER EVER......
on my 3rd, 4th & 5th semester there....
i had this roommate how look very religious....
REALLY RELIGIOUS.....
from the face you could tell that he is a nice person.....
BUT............
one day i found out THAT HE NOT.......
one phrases could conclude his life......
DEVI IN A HUMAN SKIN.....
seriously.....
Dad & Mom.....
i'm sorry i didn't told you about this earlier...
i thought it was something that i could just ignore.....
OK.... CONTINUE WITH THE STORY......
Well... the so religious person turn out to be a devil....
why i said he a devil...
BECAUSE HE A WOMANIZER......
and THE WORSE PART is he told what he had done to everyone....
he even show picture of the women that he ------ (you know what).....
WHAT A JERK.......
he told me that he had touch this and that and this and that......
THE HORROR....
how could someone so evil exist.....
and he telling people like it was something to be proud of......
i felt sorry for that girl.....
she love him but he did that to her.....
and he claim that to be call LOVE....
a weird definition of love......
and after what had happen between them...
they separated....
after he touch this and that.... they broke up...
and in the form of desperation the girl when over-sea to continue her studies....
SHE WHEN TO EGYPT......
after hearing my roommate horrible story...
i started to avoid him...
i don't want to have anything to do with someone so evil...
i just ignore him and act like he not my roommate......
UNTIL....................
one day he SAW me with someone......
that someone is my friend.... a close friend of mine....
she really important for me because she is one of the 1st friend i made here.....
i still remember how we become friend...
hahahahahhahahaha....
that memory makes me laugh everytime i remembered it....
HOW WE KNOW EACH OTHER?????
on the 2nd week during my 1st semester here....
my father already went back home....
and I DON'T KNOW HOW TO WASH CLOTH...
seriously... even now i still don't know....
at that time i don't know my hostel have a washing machine...
hehehehehhehee...
so at that time....
in the act of desperation.....
after GRAMMAR class... (the last class on friday)....
I ASK A GROUP OF GIRLS TO WASH MY CLOTH FOR ME....
i don't know any of them.....
hahahhahaha... but i was so desperate that time....
so i ask them to wash my cloth for me...
and they said "YES... WE'LL DO IT"....
and she was one of them....
and ever since that day....
those group of girls had been my BESTFRIEND....
Well, of course i gonna ask girls to do my laundry...
if i ask boys... of course they say NO....
but they (those girls) didn't wash it by hand...
they used washing machine...
hehhehehehehhe....
MEMORY TO LIFE BY........
but the down side is...
some people think that i'm gay because i hang out with them...
BUT I'M NOT GAY....
they are my true friends...
they help me even when they don't know me.....
AND I SWEAR THAT I GONNA PROTECT THEM NO MATTER WHAT...
hahahhahaha.... ok... i think i made myself clear on HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO ME....
yup mom.. yup dad... they are those girls that help me bought those tudung and the other stuff...
the one that i brought back on my 1st semester........
hehehhehehehe.......
so... continue with the story.....
so.... my roommate saw me with one of my friend......
and let just say he got his eyes on her.......
so all of the sudden...
SHE IS HIS NEXT TARGET......
so what do you thing i did...
well..
i did that i promise myself..
I PROTECT HER...........
so the GREAT WAR BEGAN....
between me and the Playboy.....
well... let just say he ALMOST WIN THE 1ST WAR...
he stole my friend phone number from my phone...
and started to sent her text messages....
The problem is...
my friend is the type that couldn't say NO.....
so she kept replying his message...
and THIS PLAYBOY started to think that my friend like him...
well, she not...
that's just the way she is...
always nice to people.....
when i knew that playboy text my friend....
my inner-instinct say HELP YOUR FRIEND...
so i did...
i told her HE IS BAD NEWS...
don't get yourself close to him...
and she did what i said....
But at one point... he goes way beyond he boarder.....
he sent her text ,massive amount of text messages and miscall..
until she couldn't bare it anymore.....
so she replied it...
and after that i TOLD HER my roommate TRUE NATURE....
the story about the girl who goes to EGYPT......
and we set a plan...
she terminated her phone number.....
and i made up story (at my room so that playboy could heard it)...
i say it out loud that MY FRIEND LOST HER SIM CARD....
and I WON THE WAR.....
but little did i know...
GOD had another plan for the 3 of us......
I thought i won the war...
But GOD still haven't done with us.....
On my 5th semester......
I made the same mistake again....
One day....
i leave my phone without super-vision....
and once again...
THAT PLAYBOY stole my friend phone number....
and the worst part is...
he sent her text messages using a different number....
so i and my friend don't know it was him that sent her text message...
HE SAID THAT HIS NAME IS ADAM....
but his true name is.... LET IT BE A SECRET.......
so they contacting each other...
BUT...
the truth finally revile....
And we found out it was my roommate....
and in the form of desperation...
my friend told him that she know he is a womanizer....
BUT I GUESS THAT'S WHERE THE PROBLEM START...
she know the truth...
and she could tell everyone...
so that playboy life would ruin if she told everyone...
so HE HAVE TO GET TO HER....
and shut her down...
NO MATTER WHAT......
and that where the 2nd WAR STARTED....
i don't know what he had told her....
BUT SHE SEEMS to doubt me now....
she even text me once saying
"is he really that bad???? he sent me text message asking me to wear hand protector to cover my aurah"...
so he using his HUMAN SKIN to cover the devil inside him..
like what i told you in the 2nd Chapter......
If you saw him... You will think that he is a nice person... seriously....
So he used his RELIGIOUS MAN SKIN to get to my friend....
and i don't know what happen...
BUT SHE FALL FOR IT....
and I LOST THE 2ND WAR.....
and i break all connection with her....
she had choose her path of life....
and i have to continue with mind.....
ever since that day..... I HATE ALL PLAYBOY......
I DID'T TRUST RELIGIOUS PEOPLE ANYMORE...
Its My 6th and last semester here at CENTER FOR FOUNDATION STUDIES IIUM.....
MY LAST SEMESTER...
and i'm in the same class with my friend......
AND THE BIG NEWS IS......
SHE ENGAGED......
i don't know what happen.....
but it happened......
they engage....
she said that after i broke all connection with her..
she stop contacting that PLAYBOY...
BUT....
HE CAME TO HER HOUSE WITH HIS PARENT...
and propose...
WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....
she said that she refuse...
but her parent told her to accept it..
and she is the type that never object her parent decision...
so she pray to GOD and accept it....
and after hearing that news...
i don't know what to do.....
i felt really depressed....
well i was......
and HE won the battle...
he finally made her silent...
she said she already told her parent that he is a womanizer...
but they didn't believe it.....
so she stuck with his for the rest of her life...
and i couldn't do anything about it...
i couldn't help her...
i felt helpless....
And at that moment forward.....
I REALLY HATE ALL PLAYBOY...
EVEN MORE THAN BEFORE.......
and i said something that really broke her heart at that time....
REALLY BROKE HER HEART....
i guess my emotion take the best out of me..
i never been myself since that day..
i try to cover my pain... my suffering from other....
pun a smile so others won't notice.....
Chapter 6: MAIN CAMPUS IIUM..... Another BIG NEWS....
WOW... Finally...
i made it to the main campus...
YEAH FOR ME...
YEAH FOR ALL OF MY FRIENDS...
we are now an iium bachelor students.....
hahahhahaha...
bachelor in Engineering...
and my Friend Didn't show up at the ice-breaking week...
Where is she????
Am I broke her heart that bad?????
soon... i got a news saying that SHE NOT GONNA BE AN IIUM STUDENT...
SHE CHANGING UNIVERSITY.....
WOW... Did i do that????
Am i the reason why she changed college???
But she has her life now...
She has him...
I don’t have anything to do with her...
THAT WHAT I KEEP SAYING TO MYSELF.....
But i still can’t believe she going to leave....
Chapter 7: GRAND DAY OUT....
Things are getting a bit interesting.....
Keep reading.....
In the middle or early of the semester
She informs us (her friends) that she want to meet us....
(Before she leaves).....
She wants to have the last day out with us before she leave...
AT 1st i wanted to go and join them...
Since this is going to be the last we gonna meet....
She told me she wants to go to Egypt....
Well... she told me that when we were at the CFS IIUM...
I thought she was joking.... Since that time we were arguing...
But she really means it.....
So i decided to go...
Since she say HE won’t come...
So i have no problem meeting her...
But a couple of day before the grand day out...
I bump up with THE PLAYBOY and HIS MINION......
I over-heard their conversation.....
They are talking about going to the grand day out....
My heart broke again...
My friend said that HE won’t come...
But that’s not what i heard.....
So i told them i won’t come.....
AND I DID.....
The day before the day out...
All of my friends ask me to go....
And they tried to convince me that THE PLAYBOY isn’t coming....
But i was to depressed to listen to them...
So i didn’t go to that grand day out.....
Chapter 8: HER CONFESSION....
Few days after the grand day out...
I went online....
And what do you know.... SHE ONLINE TOO....
And she BUZZ me on Yahoo Messenger...
At first i planned on not to reply...
But... I do reply...
And she TOLD me the truth...
AND I WAS SHOCK.......
The truth is... She not someone else’s fiancée anymore....
Ermmmm...........????????????????
Did i miss something??????
She told me that she already broke up with him....
BUT HOW ON EARTH DID YOU CONVINCE YOUR PARENT??????
I don’t want to ask her...
I don’t want her to feel sad anymore.....
We ex-change blog address....
And i read her recent post...
It’s about the grand day out...
And she wrote there something about being sad about “someone didn’t come to the grand day out”....
Erm....
I started to regret my action....
So i say i’m sorry.....
And from that day onward...
I try to not let my emotion get the best of me.....
Chapter 9: The Reason For Their BREAK-UP.....
Hahahahahahahahaha....
The DEVIL finally unmask HIS MASK....
Hahahhahahaha...
Guess no matter how you want to cover your truth nature....
It will show itself......
I read my friend post at her blog...
IT’S ABOUT A FUNNY EVENT...
Hahahahhahaa...
About the DEVIL....
But i won’t gonna talk about that event...
But i gonna talk about part of that post....
Hehehehehehhee...
THE PART THAT I LIKE.......
She said...
(Something like this)...
“He always sent me weird message”.....
Hahahahahha...
I can guess what type of messages that was.....
18sx TYPE....
He always sent those messages with his EXs...
And he event showed it to me once.....
When we were still roommate....
All Well End Well....
BUT THAT DOESN’T CHANGE MY POINT OF VIEW FOR PLAYBOY....
I STILL HATE THEM THE MOST......
Chapter 10: MY ONLINE FRIENDS.....
My online friends... hahahahhaha...
The friends that i never meet (except for my cousin MUS)...
GENG SENGAL....
Hahahahahahhaa...
MEMBER OF GENG SENGAL.....
- Me (Zaaim)
- Mustaqim (My cousin) a.k.a Kipas-Susah-Mati Dima bilan (Die hard fan)
- Fateen (bdk yg selalu badluck... hahahahaha.. Just kidding)
- Qutrun (fateen high school friend and now studying at Indonesia)
- Arian (He an Indonesia)
Sengal.... Paling... X Menahan.....
Those are the word that we always USE...
Hahahahahahaha.....
I HAVE LOTS OF FUN CHATTING WITH THEM.....
Mustaqim...
He a cousin like no other...
Hahahahhahaha...
I can’t remember when the last time we spoken to each other....
He a quiet guy....
BUT IN THE ONLINE WORLD.....
Hahahahhahaha....
He a completely different person...
I still can’t believe that it was him...
My cousin...
Is he really the one who chats with us?????
Hahahahahaha....
He didn’t use his real picture...
And sometime i forgot that i was chatting with my cousin....
Hahahahahahahaha.......
Fateen....
The girl who always got badluck....
Hahahahahahaha....
Just kidding Fateen...
She is my message friend....
Hahahaha....
Sometime we text messaging from the moment we open our eyes...
Till the time we close our eyes.....
The truth is...
I ADDICTED TO TEXT MESSAGING...
And since she is using U-PAX....
So it’s no problem for the to reply my message.....
hahahahaha... 1sen per sms.....
so.... 250 message only cost rm2.50...
hahahahahahaha.........
Qutrun.....
My creepy stalker....
She always stalks me....
And one of my loyal blog reader...
That’s the way she stalk me....
Hehehehehehe.....
The same way my father stalks me....
Hehehehehe.....
Always confuse by being a lesbo...
Thanks to Anas....
Hahahhahahaha.....
But she not a lesbo....
(^_^)y
We know each other through Fateen...
ON FACEBOOK.....
She a bit creepy at 1st...
But when you know her...
She not that bad....
I remember the 1st time she sent me text message...
To tell you the truth...
I was a bit scared of her back there....
She really looks like a psycho stalker at that time....
Hahahahahaha....
Arian...
I add him on facebook...
Hahahahahahha...
The truth is...
At that time i was adding people on facebook through the IIUM group on facebook....
I added all foreign students at that group...
But i only found few of them...
And Arian was one of them...
Hahahahaha...
But it turns out to be that he wasn’t an IIUM student....
Hahahahahahaha.......
But we chat anyway...
And not long after that....
He one of the geng...
Actually...
Mus were the one who invite him to join the group...
AND THAT US......
KAMI........
Hahahahahahahhaha.....
Chapter 11: PLAYBOY ISSUS AGAIN....
ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END....
That’s all i could say....
It turn out to be Arian is a playboy...
I don’t know if it a IS or WAS...
But the point is...
HE A PLAYBOY......
And I HATE PLAYBOY...
Ever since i know that...
I always had a fight with him...
Don’t know why...
EVERYTHING he DOES seems WRONG in my eyes.....
Maybe because i already have a mind set....
PLAYBOY = TROUBLE....
But every time we had a fight...
He the one who say sorry...
Although i was the one who start the fight......
ALWAYS START THE FIGHT.....
????????????????
Aren’t people like him supposed to be EVIL.......
So maybe he not the same as my roommate....
So i started to call him GAY...
To shake the idea that he is a playboy...
(Ok.. now you all know why i say Arian GAY)..
Hahhahaha....
But he not....
So the 5 of us still friend....
GENG SENGAL......
Chapter 12: The memory comes back....
Actually....
I was trying to forget about what happen between my friend and that DEVIL....
And i did...
UNTIL.......
One day i told QUTRUN why i HATE ARIAN so much...
I don’ hate him...
But i hate PLAYBOY....
That’s all.....
So i told her what happen....
And i kinda regret that....
Ever since that day...
She always talks about my friend....
YUP.... the one how almost married a DEVIL....
So all the bad memory comes back to me.....
And i can’t have a GOODNIGHT SLEEP that i always have....
The thought of that makes me hate ARIAN even more....
And the RAGE becomes bigger and bigger everyday...
Qutrun kept adding the pain the suffering....
She kept remind me about my friend...
And the memories come back...
The pain & suffering goes larger and larger.....
TILL I COULDN’T BARE IT ANYMORE....
Chapter 13: DESTROYED ALL CONNECTION......
I couldn’t fake a smile anymore....
The pain is way too much....
And i throw all of it to ARIAN.....
Although he had nothing to do with all of this...
He doesn’t even know what had happen....
BUT............
THE PAIN & SUFFERING TOOK THE BEST OUT OF ME.....
I DELETED THEM FROM MY LIFE....
ARIAN.... MUS..... QUT.....
But i kept Fateen....
She wasn’t online at that time...
Hahahahahaha....
I deleted the 3 of them from my life.....
HOW..........?????????????
By DELETING THEM FROM MY
YAHOO MESSENGER
SKYPE
So i don’t have any connection with them anymore.....
But.....
I only delete ARIAN on my yahoo messenger...
For Qut and Mus...
I just turn permanent invisible...
Hehehehehe....
They started to say that i’m A BAD PERSON...
And many other word that REALLY hurt my feeling....
And everyone seems to be getting away from me...
Event my friends...
All of a sudden i felt empty inside....
So i told Fateen...
I told her everything...
I told her everything...
I told her everything...
Chapter 14: The Reason Behind “THE DELETE”...
Arian....
I deleted him because he a playboy...
Well... he was....
(Maybe WAS)...
Every time i chat with him....
The anger comes....
The bad memories CAME BACK.....
And i hate that.....
SO i deleted him TO PREVENT THE ANGER TO CAME BACK......
Qutrun....
I deleted her.....
WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHE DELETED ME.....
It’s not me that deleted her....
Well... she deleted me after i said i’m gonna deleted her...
So, she deleted me before i deleted her....
But even if she didn’t deleted me...
I will personally delete her....
WHY?????????????
Because she kept talked about “the girl”....
No matter how many time i ask her TO STOP....
But she always talked about it....
And the pain & suffering grow larger and larger....
So i deleted her TO PREVENT THE PAIN & SUFFERING TO GROW....
Mustaqim...
I deleted him because he is THE LINK.....
I know....
After i deleted the other two...
They’ll ask Mus to calm me down and ask me to forgive them....
Although they don’t know the true reason why i deleted them......
So mus is the link...
The link to my problem...
Well, he a possible link that could link me back to the other two..
And i don’t want to felt the pain anymore...
I said something cruel to him...
So that he really MAD at me....
And it’s work...
It’s a day work for “A PLANNER” like me....
SO i deleted him TO PREVENT HIM FROM LINKING ME BACK TO THE OTHER TWO...
Chapter 15: THEY WANT TO KNOW.....
They kept asking me what they do wrong.....
WHY ZAAIM DELETED US.....
IS HE GONE CRAZY....
And the funniest but hurtful statement was...
One of them (well two of them)
Said that i got possessed by Ghost a.k.a DEMON....
Hahahahahaha.....
They say that i’m HALF HUMAN HALF DEVIL....
Ermmm......
Maybe i deserve that...
But it still hurt......
I’m a human that have feeling....
And last night Arian sent me message on yahoo messenger...
SO I TOLD HIM PART OF THE STORY....
I told him i couldn’t carry the pain & suffering anymore......
But i didn’t tell him the ROOT of my suffering....
So i told them
GET OUT OF MY LIFE....
Although my heart really say
PLEASE HELP ME.....
Chapter 16: Tears
I couldn’t handle it anymore....
With all the pain & suffering that they gave me.....
And NOW....
All of those harsh word that they throw to me...
I FINALLY CRACK OUT....
My eyes start to become red...
And waters went out...
It’s kinda embarrassing for a man to cry...
REALLY...
It’s really embarrassing....
But i couldn’t care less about it...
All i wanted is to let all the pain to go away....
I’m not really the type of person that shared his problem with others....
SO THE RESULT IS.....
TEARS.....
I can’t remember when the last time I cry...
If i not mistaken, i was still a child...
Small child....
The usual reason for kids to cry...
Toy...
Food...
Hahahahahaha.....
But i didn’t cried out loud last night...
That’s just playing dumb....
Hahahahahahahaha.........
But crying does help.....
And all the pain & suffering gone.....
Chapter 17: I’m Sorry.....
I’m sorry for all the heart that i hurt...
I’m sorry for not telling the truth....
I’m sorry for making you confuse....
I’m sorry for what i had done....
SORRY seems to be a hard word to pronounce....
And sorry is not enough...
AFTER WHAT HAPPEN.....
Arian...
Well... he not a bad person....
Although i always the one who causes trouble...
Even trouble with the other (that does not include him)...
He always the one who say sorry.....
He not a percent alike to my ex-roommate....
They are a complete different person...
And i should not say he a bad person just because he a PLAYBOY...
But he still claims that HE NOT A PLAYBOY....
Hahahahahhaa.......
Qutrun....
I should say sorry to her....
She cause he pain & suffering because she does not know
That what she said really cause me so much pain....
I should tell her from the beginning...
She a really good friend...
And i don’t deserve to treat her that way...
Although i said all of those bad words...
She says that she’ll always be my friend....
More like a stalker...
Hahahahahahahhahaha....
Just kidding Qut.....
Mustaqim.....
The one who really hurt the most...
Hahahahahaha....
Maybe i went overboard this time....
But he is my cousin...
And the same as the others..
I shouldn’t do that to him...
Especially him...
Because he is my cousin.....
FAMILY STICK TOGETHER....
Hahahahahah....
I know him...
He will cold off someday.....
Just buy him a ticket to Dima Bilan concert and he’ll be as OK as ever...
Hahahahahahhahahaha.......
THE END....
And i hope there won’t be a sequel to this novel....
Hahahahahahahaha.......
P/S: DAD..... don’t worry...... I’m all ok now..... DON’T WORRY... I’ll give the details later..... Or maybe i won’t..... hehehehehe.... It’s your birthday today....... FREE CALL..... heheheheehhehe.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD........
YOU’RE THE BEST.......
I’M REALLY IN TROUBLE...... MY DAD TOTALLY GONNA BE ANGRY.....
Sorry... i’ll promise i won’t be in a fight anymore...
(^_^)y
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